do me one last favor please kate, as you have failed to do anything else i have asked of you.
tell my sister i love her, tell my parents too as i wont be able to do it myself.
tell them im gonna miss them and that they shouldnt be sad, it had nothing to do with them.
it was you.
youre the one who made me feel this way. its all my fault though, im the one.
there is no one else to blame but me, its my fault that im not good enough.
and you helped me realise this. my life has been one big mistake,
and it has to stop now before i start ruining everyone elses life.
i was already dead the day you left me. the tears havnt fully stopped since then.
my life started when i first saw you, and ended when i last.
my arms hurt. i cut them a little too deep.
i cant sleep. i just wonder what your doing, where you are, if you still think of me.
do you? i guess ill never know. but i still think of you,
first thing i think about when i get up and last thing i think about at night.
you fucked up my life, but you made it. you the only one who can fix it, but you broke it.
you let me go. do you remember? you always said you never wanted leave my arms. but you did.
there is no possible way to explain how much im hurting inside,
and how many tears ive cried.
we were made for each other, but i guess im the only one who can see that.
Ive been thinking hard, and the way i want to do this is so your the last thing i think about,
so im going back to the first place i saw you, the place which started the end of my life.
your the reason why this has to happen, which is ironic,
as the hardest part of this is leaving you.
I Hope you know that i love you. and that i never want to be away from you,
but its not my choice anymore.
with all my unwanted love that will go on forever and eternity.